Running Update
So we're less than a week away from marathon training season. It's officially time to get back to real running. I have found that if I don't pay someone for my work-outs they just don't happen or they're just half-ass running weeks. This week is no different. I'm really hoping tomorrow I come to my senses. I'm blaming my need to study for this laziness. Woo!Hoo! it's finally time.
Dating
The attempt to online date has been a bit different to say the least. I swear these people just want some e-mail buddies to play on their crackberries with while in meetings. Way too much back-and-forth for me. I'm a very direct straight to the point kinda gal. Funny I stated just that in my profile. Maybe these people are really busy but wow, this is a little more time consuming for my liking. I know what you're thinking did you think it would be easy? No I didn't, but come on how difficult is it to decide if you want to meet a person for a cup of coffee. If they don't thrill you over the first 2 e-mails let it go. Now with all of that said...I have some plans with one of those boys that I think if anything will be a cool guy to know. Also, for the record this hasn't been a complete waste of time I've met some other potential boys through my friends. We shall see.
BTW- 2 1/2 weeks until vacation...I so need a break!
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Saturday, August 19, 2006
Ms. Impatience
Well, I've joined the blackhole of dating...online dating that is. I think they should call it online surfing or lurking or something because dating is a strong term, and at the rate my winks aren't being returned it's really just online surfing for me. Don't get me wrong a freak from the Bronx e-mailed me some love letter that is for sure a cut & paste routine that he sends to tons of women. I figure he's either looking for a green card or a sugar momma. Keep in mind my profile states I'm looking in a 20mile radius of Austin, ages 30-39. I guess men really are optimistic. My other peeve with this b.s. is those that don't post a picture. Do they really think I'm going to waste time on their profile? I delete those immediately. The majority of the profiles are the same so to keep me from going cross-eyed I get rid of the boys with no pic. I just don't get that one at all. Oh, yeah, they've winked at me too. I must confess I'm a tad shallow...if I don't think you're cute I'm just not interested.
With all of the above said I have since joined 2 other dating sites/surfing sites...I refuse to lose this bizarre game! I will find someone cute/interesting to go on a date with before I go on vacation next month!!
With all of the above said I have since joined 2 other dating sites/surfing sites...I refuse to lose this bizarre game! I will find someone cute/interesting to go on a date with before I go on vacation next month!!
Friday, August 11, 2006
The Comfort Zone
More like getting out of the comfort zone. I have moments when I wonder if I've completely lost my mind. For instance, I'm getting up at 4:30am on a Saturday to do a long run. Getting up at 4:30am on a work day is bad enough but a Saturday. Yes, I signed up for this torture.
A few weeks ago my good friend, Joanne, came down for her first visit to Texas. I'm happy to report she survived the Tex-ass heat. Anyway, I adore her, she totally motivates me. She's one of those people that has more than 24 hours in her day, seriously! Well we spent a day brainstorming and goal setting, yes, we found this to be fun. We've been keeping up with each other and our goals on a weekly basis via e-mail. We talk a few times a month to go over everything. The majority of my goals are to keep me on track with what I really want out of my life and a few lofty items on the list are starting to stretch the comfort zone...
One of the minor things I listed on my goal list was to e-mail Steve, head coach of Rogue, my running group. I really want to get faster and qualify for Boston. Well, I have officially signed up for Steve's Performance Project Group. I'm scared and excited out of my mind. For starters- I'll have a cute coach yelling at me and I have to report my progress to this cute guy. Not to worry he's taken by another cute girl. Eye candy is always good. The downside of this "project" is I will be sprinting at 5:30am on Tues/Thurs. I guess I will finally start working out in the mornings. I am also going to be the slowest in this group. Steve already confirmed this fact with me. I've never been the fastest or the slowest but I guess somebody has to be the caboose.
The larger goal for my August list is to get myself in the dating world. Ok, there are some things I'm not great at in life, but who really cares...then there are some things I flat out SUCK at...this would be dating. I can't tell you how nervous I get on dates...to get around this I dated a few of my friends...this proved to be disastrous on many levels. To deal with my fears head on i've decided on Monday (give me my weekend, ok!) to join the land of online dating. I'm very excited about the unknown, the possibilities and the stories that are sure to come of this...I'll keep you posted.
I needed to accomplish something this month before I report to Joanne via phone. E-mail you can get away with more the phone not so much...
A few weeks ago my good friend, Joanne, came down for her first visit to Texas. I'm happy to report she survived the Tex-ass heat. Anyway, I adore her, she totally motivates me. She's one of those people that has more than 24 hours in her day, seriously! Well we spent a day brainstorming and goal setting, yes, we found this to be fun. We've been keeping up with each other and our goals on a weekly basis via e-mail. We talk a few times a month to go over everything. The majority of my goals are to keep me on track with what I really want out of my life and a few lofty items on the list are starting to stretch the comfort zone...
One of the minor things I listed on my goal list was to e-mail Steve, head coach of Rogue, my running group. I really want to get faster and qualify for Boston. Well, I have officially signed up for Steve's Performance Project Group. I'm scared and excited out of my mind. For starters- I'll have a cute coach yelling at me and I have to report my progress to this cute guy. Not to worry he's taken by another cute girl. Eye candy is always good. The downside of this "project" is I will be sprinting at 5:30am on Tues/Thurs. I guess I will finally start working out in the mornings. I am also going to be the slowest in this group. Steve already confirmed this fact with me. I've never been the fastest or the slowest but I guess somebody has to be the caboose.
The larger goal for my August list is to get myself in the dating world. Ok, there are some things I'm not great at in life, but who really cares...then there are some things I flat out SUCK at...this would be dating. I can't tell you how nervous I get on dates...to get around this I dated a few of my friends...this proved to be disastrous on many levels. To deal with my fears head on i've decided on Monday (give me my weekend, ok!) to join the land of online dating. I'm very excited about the unknown, the possibilities and the stories that are sure to come of this...I'll keep you posted.
I needed to accomplish something this month before I report to Joanne via phone. E-mail you can get away with more the phone not so much...
Saturday, July 29, 2006
Haunted...
So finally today, Saturday at 6am I joined the summer long group for our long run. Yes, I paid for this program but getting up at 5:15am on a Saturday really didn't suit me or my Friday evening plans. I would like to state that I have been doing my long runs but I've been doing them at 7am a much better time.
Today I managed to get up and do this 6am run and boy am I glad we did this thing early. I stepped out the back door and dear lord was it HOT/HUMID...wow, the sun isn't even up. Man is it going to be a long 10 miles on the dam loop no less. Have I ever mentioned how much I HATE the dam loop. I swear my worst runs occur on this path and today was no different.
Last year I had to drop down to the half marathon due to an IT injury that was brutal. Well I had to do a bunch of massages (no these aren't the relaxing kind these hurt like a mofo), core work-outs several times a week and stretch 2-3 times per day. At the time I was unemployed and getting in my treatment was realtively easy, now that I'm employed I have been anything but religious with this stuff. I've half-ass been stretching and half-ass using the foam roller. Today was the day I had a rude awakening...the IT flare up, now this is the first flare up I've had since last November. Unfortunately, this waited to happen when we were on the "bad" side of the trail. I was running with Jen whom I ran long runs with last year and no way was I going to turn and leave her on the bad side alone, nor did I have any plans to hobble back to the water stop on my own. Besides it wasn't that bad....
I really don't think this is bad. I will definitely start my core work-outs again, get re-aquainted with the foam roller and I'm calling Lisa on Monday. I have a very lofty goal for the Austin '07 Marathon and NOTHING is getting in my way!!
Today I managed to get up and do this 6am run and boy am I glad we did this thing early. I stepped out the back door and dear lord was it HOT/HUMID...wow, the sun isn't even up. Man is it going to be a long 10 miles on the dam loop no less. Have I ever mentioned how much I HATE the dam loop. I swear my worst runs occur on this path and today was no different.
Last year I had to drop down to the half marathon due to an IT injury that was brutal. Well I had to do a bunch of massages (no these aren't the relaxing kind these hurt like a mofo), core work-outs several times a week and stretch 2-3 times per day. At the time I was unemployed and getting in my treatment was realtively easy, now that I'm employed I have been anything but religious with this stuff. I've half-ass been stretching and half-ass using the foam roller. Today was the day I had a rude awakening...the IT flare up, now this is the first flare up I've had since last November. Unfortunately, this waited to happen when we were on the "bad" side of the trail. I was running with Jen whom I ran long runs with last year and no way was I going to turn and leave her on the bad side alone, nor did I have any plans to hobble back to the water stop on my own. Besides it wasn't that bad....
I really don't think this is bad. I will definitely start my core work-outs again, get re-aquainted with the foam roller and I'm calling Lisa on Monday. I have a very lofty goal for the Austin '07 Marathon and NOTHING is getting in my way!!
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
Back to the Jibberish
What's up with the mold in this town? Is it like the heat "you'll get used to it?" Man this stuff is kickin' my ass. About 2 weeks ago this mold stuff had me down for the count and now it's back. I was told it makes you weepy...I opted to believe this and not think that the leaky eyes had anything to do with my birthday & new shiny number. Thanks Dr. Jarvis it definitely made me feel better. So anyway this mold crap has knocked me down again. Instead of enjoying booze on the green I'm trying to be as still as possible so I don't disturb my aching head, neck & eyes. I think if my head pulsates anymore it just might pulsate off of my body. I wonder if this were to happen would I get another one in return and if so what would it look like? Allergy free is all I ask for...
Sunday, May 28, 2006
My Favorite Poem for no apparent reason...
The Dance
I have sent you my invitation,
the note inscribed on the palm of my hand by the fire of living.
Don't jump up and shout, "Yes, this is what I want! Let's do it!"
Just stand up quietly and dance with me.
Show me how you follow your deepest desires,
spiraling down into the ache within the ache,
and I will show you how I reach inward and open outward
to feel the kiss of the Mystery, sweet lips on my own, every day.
Don't tell me you want to hold the whole world in your heart.
Show me how you turn away from making another wrong without
abandoning yourself when you are hurt and afraid of being unloved.
Tell me a story of who you are,
and see who I am in the stories I am living.
And together we will remember that each of us always has a choice.
Don't tell me how wonderful things will be...someday.
Show me you can risk being completely at peace,
truly okay with the way things are right now in this moment,
and again in the next and the next and the next...
I have heard enough warrior stories of heroic daring.
Tell me how you crumble when you hit the wall,
the place you cannot go beyond by the strength of your own will.
What carries you to the other side of that wall,
to the fragile beauty of your own humanness?
And after we have shown each other how we have set and kept the
clear, healthy boundaries that help us live side by side with each other,
let us risk remembering that we never stop silently loving
those we once loved out loud.
Take me to the places on the earth that teach you how to dance,
the places where you can risk letting the world break your heart,
and I will take you to the places where the earth beneath my feet
and the stars overhead make my heart whole again and again.
Show me how you take care of business
without letting business determine who you are.
When the children are fed but still the voices within and around us
shout that soul's desires have too high a price,
let us remind each other that it is never about the money.
Show me how you offer to your people and the world
the stories and the songs you want our children's children to remember,
and I will show you how I struggle,
not to change the world, but to love it.
Sit beside me in long moments of shared solitude,
knowing both our absolute aloneness and our undeniable belonging.
Dance with me in the silence and in the sound of small daily words,
holding neither against me at the end of the day.
And when the sound of all the declarations of our sincerest
intentions has died away on the wind,
dance with me in the infinite pause before the next great inhale
of the breath that is breathing us all into being,
not filling the emptiness from the outside or from within.
Don't say, "Yes!"
Just take my hand and dance with me.
~ Oriah Mountain Dreamer
I have sent you my invitation,
the note inscribed on the palm of my hand by the fire of living.
Don't jump up and shout, "Yes, this is what I want! Let's do it!"
Just stand up quietly and dance with me.
Show me how you follow your deepest desires,
spiraling down into the ache within the ache,
and I will show you how I reach inward and open outward
to feel the kiss of the Mystery, sweet lips on my own, every day.
Don't tell me you want to hold the whole world in your heart.
Show me how you turn away from making another wrong without
abandoning yourself when you are hurt and afraid of being unloved.
Tell me a story of who you are,
and see who I am in the stories I am living.
And together we will remember that each of us always has a choice.
Don't tell me how wonderful things will be...someday.
Show me you can risk being completely at peace,
truly okay with the way things are right now in this moment,
and again in the next and the next and the next...
I have heard enough warrior stories of heroic daring.
Tell me how you crumble when you hit the wall,
the place you cannot go beyond by the strength of your own will.
What carries you to the other side of that wall,
to the fragile beauty of your own humanness?
And after we have shown each other how we have set and kept the
clear, healthy boundaries that help us live side by side with each other,
let us risk remembering that we never stop silently loving
those we once loved out loud.
Take me to the places on the earth that teach you how to dance,
the places where you can risk letting the world break your heart,
and I will take you to the places where the earth beneath my feet
and the stars overhead make my heart whole again and again.
Show me how you take care of business
without letting business determine who you are.
When the children are fed but still the voices within and around us
shout that soul's desires have too high a price,
let us remind each other that it is never about the money.
Show me how you offer to your people and the world
the stories and the songs you want our children's children to remember,
and I will show you how I struggle,
not to change the world, but to love it.
Sit beside me in long moments of shared solitude,
knowing both our absolute aloneness and our undeniable belonging.
Dance with me in the silence and in the sound of small daily words,
holding neither against me at the end of the day.
And when the sound of all the declarations of our sincerest
intentions has died away on the wind,
dance with me in the infinite pause before the next great inhale
of the breath that is breathing us all into being,
not filling the emptiness from the outside or from within.
Don't say, "Yes!"
Just take my hand and dance with me.
~ Oriah Mountain Dreamer
Thursday, May 18, 2006
A Bunch of Jibberish
Yes, the title of my blog is a bunch of jibberish and I'm not kidding. I will disclose from the get go I am NOT a writer...yes, there will be tons of grammatical errors, spelling mistakes and I will end sentences in prepositions. Apparently the last disclosure is a no, no in the English world. English was not my forte. I can't imagine having much to say on these things, but my friends all have blogs and in order to post a comment that will list your name I had to register. I must mention how much I hate anonymous posters. They are usually being mean then don't have the balls to say who they are...that's all i'm sayin'.
I'm out,
kj
I'm out,
kj
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